I’ll always count the North Side of Milwaukee as my home. When folks ask where I’m from, I tell them: “Milwaukee.” And that was my home until I left Milwaukee to start my first job after college, when I trained in Minneapolis and was sent to Green Bay, Wisconsin as my first assignment in the Social Security Administration.
Now, when I return to Milwaukee for a visit to family or old friends, I skirt that part of the city, although I long to return again. I’d like drive down the streets I walked every morning on my way to school. But Milwaukee is a city that has suffered from its own racism, and after being deliberately bumped from behind in a rented car at a corner on the North Side, I don’t want to return again. I remember the days of Father Groppi marching from my neighborhood to the South Side of Milwaukee, across a viaduct, during civil rights days. Milwaukee was and is very racially segregated. The people have a right to be angry, but I no longer have a need to prove that I can do certain things.
Over the course of my childhood, my parents rented flats on the North Side. As an infant, I was taken home from Mercy Hospital to 9 and Juneau Avenue on the near north side, and over the years, we lived on many other streets – Ring Street, where I started school at La Follette Grade School, 2 short blocks away, 28 and Center, Medford Avenue at 26 street, which ran parallel to Fond du Lac Avenue, a major artery, and then a flat on 49 Street South of Burleigh, across the street from St. Joe’s Hospital School of Nursing. From there, I walked to Washington High School. And that’s where we lived when I graduated from High School and began university at University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee, on the East Side.
A city kid, I was familiar with buses and took them everywhere, until I got my driver’s license at 17. Then, I shared the Bel Air coupe with my parents – after Mom had driven Dad to work at A.O. Smith on Capital Drive – when I needed it to get to classes at UW-M.
When I was growing up in the 1950’s and 1960’s, the streets were still lined with majestic maple and elm trees until Dutch Elm disease cleared out the elms. And except for the months of winter, the trees met magically overhead across streets. For all its simplicity and even modesty, the streets were beautiful then. In the winter time, children – myself included – walked all the way to school along the top of snowbanks formed when city trucks shoveled the snow onto the narrow strip of concrete that marked the edge of the sidewalk. We’d climb the snowbank at the end of a block and walk clear along the top to the other end, which marked an alley or street.
But we moved a lot. I think it’s tough on a kid to move to another home, another school. And I think it was especially tough because my mother, who shouldered most of the responsibility for finding a place and for setting the move into motion, was anxious, always, about our safety. We always moved to a beautiful upper flat in a building that we called a “flat.” Another family lived below us; below the first floor was a full basement and above the upper flat was a full attic. Our flat was always beautiful because Mom preferred that the wooden frames around windows and doors not be painted over. And those flats – built some time after 1900 – had small rooms with a tiny inner hall with cupboards and where the doors to two bedrooms and the bathroom gathered together. We’d move when Mom had some beef with the landlord, the landlord, the person Daddy called, “Boss,” with a smile.
I shared a room with my little sister, Suzie, and until my brother Ronnie moved away to be married, and we always had a place with three bedrooms. Those old flats had a pantry with a window, cupboards on two sides. At Medford Avenue, the place had a lovely butler pantry.
We’d move when Mom was angry at the landlord for some reason, or we’d move when Mom wanted us to study at a different public school. In memory, it is always Mom who made the decision. I expect that’s accurate. Dad was a hard working, strong, union man, but he left the decisions to my mother. And if anyone could carry out what was needed, it was Mom. When Suzie was still in the stroller, I have a memory of walking in the neighborhood when Mom spotted a “for rent” sign on a house, and when she left me at the curb with my baby sister in her stroller. Mom marched angrily down the steps after the woman who answered the door spotted us waiting on the sidewalk and told Mom they didn’t rent to families with children.
I expect I felt a kind of shame at the simplicity, the poverty of those places. Once, walking to school with my friend Nancy, who lived down the street from me with her grandparents, on Medford Avenue, asked me why my parents rented their house. She had a way of saying things that are better left unsaid, I think. I don’t remember my answer, but I remember how I felt. I didn’t know the answer to her question. Now, I think that my parents had both grown up poor, although both were hard workers, and Dad was grateful to have landed a union job in the steel mill after the War. It would have been too big a stretch for them to own their own place. That was that.
In the summers, my family sat together on the front porch of our upper flat – wherever it was – after supper. Sometimes, Daddy would make popcorn, and we’d pass around the big round dish, taking big handfuls of the treat. As the sky grew dark, fireflies would pop into the night, and once or twice, a bat flew from the eves of the windows over the attic, into the night, and back again.
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Was it hard on me, to move again and again as a child? I have never considered that. It was hard on me, I think, to see – to feel – the anxiety that filled the air that I breathed as a child. Like most kids, I didn’t know what I lacked, although as a child, I noticed the differences in social class of my teachers and the other kids, once I got to Junior High.
My long life has passed since I lived in those humble, crowded flats. Jeff and I own a beautiful Craftsman House in Oakland, a house that is the same vintage as those flats.
That’s where I am from.
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